its strange. the more i am with nature idk why the more i think about death and its sort of reverting back to my horrible thoughts and existential crisis i had before….but there is peace in nature. but also a type of silent terror….not a scary one but one that makes me feel nervous. i think its because when i admire all this i question about a higher power …a higher being. that they say that this was all random its just…its hard for me to believe.